Say What You Need To Say

Today marks a day that I have thought about in my head for quite a while as I do with important decisions. Today instead of choosing who to let in I choose to let everyone in on a story that changed who I am today & who I will be for the rest of my living days. Although this is only the headline of what happened to me & a small portion of what I experienced, I think that it will be sufficient for those in need of the words to feel what they need to. What follows is the most challenging thing I have ever been through in my life, but the happy part is that I am through it, a better person, & not stuck in it.

Other posts I write so that you can take what meaning you want or need to out of them. This post I write with some specific intentions. I intend for this to help others that may have something similar happen to them & to help others that will never realize how blessed they are. To begin, I always hear people say that good things happen to good people, but what they fail to realize is that bad things happen to good people sometimes too.

I remember the days like they were yesterday. From the day in March 2008, when my wife at the time told me her heart had checked out to the day not too much later & while we were still married that I found her at the house of one of the guys that stood by me at my wedding posing as a best friend & best man. I can also remember how, when I heard her utter those words, I felt my heart actually skip a beat for the first time ever & I was completely crushed. I remember it all vividly & probably will for the rest of my life, but now I have a much better understanding. The journey that followed was not always the easiest, but I am blessed with a great group of friends, my mother, & faith that all helped me through.

Looking back, I am happy with how I handled things & happy with the person I have become because I made a decision to rise above what was happening around me & let the person I am inside & LOVE rule my actions. I chose to act out of integrity & say what I needed to say to ensure that how I felt was communicated & that I would never have to worry that I did not say enough. I can rest easy knowing that even if I did make mistakes I did not give up & stayed willing to work to keep the promise I made. To this day, I still try to ensure that I act out of integrity & LOVE for others while not turning a blind eye to my cautions.

Like the song by John Mayer, "it is better to say what you need to say than to never say what you need to say again." I know that what I say is out of LOVE & well thought out...& I am absolutely sure that they will attract the right people & take the wrong from my life! Above all else, I have to thank God for allowing me to remain faithful in the fact that he uses all things to work together for good & for helping me remain happy, faithful in marriage & life, & eternally optimistic in what the future holds. Peace, LOVE, & Happiness to you all!!!

Bless You!
Thomas